So many tears

The kids have been struggling the last few days. They miss their friends terribly. Tears at the dinner table. Tears before bed. Tears while reading a book. So many tears. And of course all these tears make us question our decision. We know it will take time to settle in here but it will never be the same. We spent every single day with them, they were an extension of our family. I love all the kids dearly and their parents are the greatest friends. We were spoiled, neighbors and best friends. I find myself wishing I could walk across the street and have a quick chat with them. We would share a bottle of wine while discussing renovation projects, our children, a book we finished reading and upcoming trips. Yes, technology has come a long way but it’s just not the same. For me personally, these friends were the very first friends that got me. I could be 100% me, without any judgement. I’ve never experienced that feeling before. True to myself. They offer advice but are also great listeners. They are lovely, kind and funny. They have completely changed my life for the better. They are wonderful mothers and wives and the very best friends. I feel lost without them. I love them dearly and miss their hugs and smiling faces every single day. And it’s not just me, my husband is feeling the loss as well. We all became very close, especially the last few months. Tequilla Tuesdays, BBQ’s in the cul-de-sac, art projects, building ramps, bike riding, dinners, yoga. The list goes on and on. They are our people.

Nora asked when we are moving back, Oliver asked if he will ever see his friends again and Finn misses the dogs. It’s gut wrenching. I can’t take away their pain and knowing I caused the pain is like a dagger to the heart.

This will get better, right?